Quarantine Check-In

We have been in quarantine/social distance, whatever you want to call it, for several weeks now and if you are like me you are loosing it! The virtual games, television shows, FaceTime calls, and runs to the store have all worn out and left me wanting to throw every electronic device out the window. I feel like I have exhausted the list of things to do and the walls are closing in.

I am thankful that I am physically well, even though I did have to get stitches recently due to an accident that has left my right hand in quite a compromising condition; but nonetheless, I am pushing forward. However, mentally I think I am drained. I miss the little things in life like going to a restaurant for dinner and the beach for a crafted cocktail. The simple acts have now become a luxury and it is quite alarming. Additionally, I think we can all speak to hope in tomorrow. As our economy crumbles, I think the fear has transitioned from how long we will be distant, to what will life be once we are out…

As a recent graduate from a master’s program, my 2020 was suppose to look much different. I was applying for jobs, revamping my blog and vlog, planning several trips, and quite frankly finally looking to be in a relationship. I was suppose to walk across the stage in May and receive my second degree with my family and friends watching. As January and February flew by I just knew March, April, and May were going to be the months of transition and rebirth. But as my freelance positions have gone from a filled weekly schedule to crickets, my graduation is now virtual, and hiring managers are emailing me with the unfortunate news of hiring freezes, the future is looking very bleak.

So where do we go from here?

It feels insensitive to complain because of the amount of deaths, loss of loved ones, and loss of jobs globally. But I think the purpose of this blog is to say it is ok to feel sad, scared, claustrophobic, hypersensitive, or just plain mad at what is happening in our world. We can point a finger to leadership, different countries, health practices of others, and lack of resources; however, at the end of the day, we are all people experiencing the same life altering issue. We might not find hope in dreaming of a different tomorrow, but we can find hope in supporting each other as people.

My original plan was to tell you all my Netflix, snacks, and beauty obsessions for this blog. But as I sat down to write I realized me binge watching All American and drinking lime infused water for my skin is not going to bring anyone any solace. As I began writing, I saw a tweet that said, “This is a pandemic. Not a productivity contest.” Even though my interests lie in fashion, men’s beauty, and pop culture, I have a bigger responsibility to check in, because during this time I truly don’t feel like putting on a clay mask or watching a movie about a world that seems oh so foreign these days. I just want to vent and feel better and I am sure you do too.

My comments are open, my email is open and my DMs on social are definitely open. Just do not FaceTime me because my hairline looks as if I am at Rikers Island on my 4th week of solitude.

Stay strong, stay prayed up, and stay healthy!